cry or laugh...

lol long time without writing anything here but I guess it's time. Did you ever feel that way?? like when you do something really really wrong?? sometimes you can't take it out of your mind and... yet you're the only one who can do it.. Well that happened to me ... I didn't go to work today cause I felt so bad... I didn't really want to wake up but I somehow I did... dunno how...

Anyway.... I've been thinking about all of theses stuff lately. Almost all the times we are waiting for other people to accept us .. with flaws and all... but we don't accept ourselves... we just want them to accept something we can't stand and that's kinda stupid... At least that's what happen to me...

I guess it's about time, and about dealing with my mistakes... I just want everything to be alright... cause I've been doing everything wrong lately :/ Anyway... I'm just going to keep going ... things can only get better or worse.. ha, it depends on what we do..

~ghillie